the thoughts of a young jew

Saturday, June 18, 2005

it's not my scene.

over shabbas i thought of so much to write in this thing and now it has all just disappeared. i have something i need to tell someone but am not quite sure how to word it (what else is new!) and i fear it may actually end our relationship. no, i did not cheat on my boyfriend (i'd have to have a boyfriend to actually cheat on him). ugh. i wish i could remember what i wanted to say. this was a waste of a post, but i'll post it anyway (since i haven't posed in a rediculously long time).

Thursday, May 26, 2005

and if you carry on this way.

well, on tuesday i finally got my wisdom teeth removed. i am officially wisdom-toothless. yeah! i'm in a bit of pain right now, but since i'm on pain meds and sterroids (aw yeah!) i'm not feeling too bad. it's nice and warm outside... i think i might actually change out of my jammies (which ive been in since tuesday) and sit on the swing outside. that might be nice.
know what show i love, but probably shouldn't? "next." one of the many dating-game shows on mtv. i don't know why... i just love it so much.
i joined the jcc last week... or was it two weeks ago? i actually really like it... and miss it since i havent been there since monday. on tuesday and thursday afternoons there is female swim only... which works out perfectly with my schedule (since i start back to school next week). i have "intro to biological chemistry" (lecture and lab) on tues and thurs from 8 AM-12:20 PM... then i can come home, eat lunch and at 1:30-2:30 PM is female swim hour... woohoo! there's also mon and wed evening swim time for females... but too many people i know go at that time and i'd rather swim with strangers (mostly old women at the time i go). anyway, my face itches... i wonder if it's the pain pills that are doing it.
MUSIC TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sunday, May 22, 2005

a little bit of rain i'd say is fair.

i am in a much better mood today than i was last night. im currently very hungry because i accidentally forgot to eat breakfast right after i davened. then i made the mistake of going online. i can never go online for just a couple of minutes, it always turns into a couple of hours. ok, maybe not that much, but im on for a good amount of time. it's so nice and warm outside. i just want to play outside all day... sadly, none of my friends are on vacation yet (darn jew schools!) so i have no one to play with. oh well! music on friday! woohoo!

Saturday, May 21, 2005

sing with me.

i'm in a gluch mood right now. im feeling a little depressed, a little antsy, a little stuffed and a little hungry. oh, to be a woman. it's not fun. hormones, why do you hurt me so? less than a week till i can listen to music. i know im not supposed to think of it that way, but i do... so sue me! im staring at the new hot hot heat cd and i just want to take a listen. good thing it's only the case... the actually cd is downstairs. glerbin!

Wednesday, May 04, 2005

let this music make you fly.

i've been doing some research on chabad/lubavitch lately. their philosophy is beautiful. i recommed going to to read the entire background of chabad, but i'm just going to write my favorite part: (all these quotes are from
"Just as in the Baal Shem Tov’s era, the Lubavitch barrier-breaking approach was, at first, sharply criticized, even attacked with vehemence; and once again, after the passage of only a few years, the Jewish day-school system and an “outreach attitude” has become all-but-universal. Throughout the community it is becoming increasingly recognized and accepted that we are one. A oneness unique to the Jewish people. Limbs of the same body. Strengthening one limb, one Jew, fortifies us all. A oneness given frequent and eloquent emphasis within Chabad Chassidism, reflecting its fundamental belief that every Jew, regardless of affiliation or background, possesses a neshama, a unique soul, a G-dly spark. In its essence, this spark of G-dliness is common to all Jews and equal in all Jews, which gives new significance to the often-repeated colloquialism, “A Jew is a Jew is Jew.”
By virtue of the neshama (the G-dly soul), the Torah and all its precepts are the inheritance, the right and the privilege of all our people. So when the question is raised, “Why do you put on tefillin in the street, or hand out Shabbat candles and candleholders, to men and women whom you have never met before?” the chassid of Lubavitch responds:
Because of what they already are, not because of what they may become; not so that he or she may one day become “orthodox,” but because right now they are already Jewish, and tefillin and Shabbat-candles belong to them; it is their right and their obligation to perform the mitzvah, and it is our privilege, honor and obligation to respectfully help them do so, with the same fervor and compassion that I would provide a warm meal and a place to sleep for a passerby whom I have never seen before and may never see again.
Some have termed outreach kiruv rechokim, “drawing close those who are distant.” Lubavitch comments: No Jew should be characterized as “distant,” for, in essence, we are one."

how beautiful is that? how can anyone critisize an entire people when they're philosphy is so wonderful?

Tuesday, May 03, 2005

eegad, brain!

on may 24th at 10:50 am i will be getting all four of my wisdom teeth removed. please pray for me! i've been having problem with these G-d forsaken teeth since i was 16 years old. i was referred to a dental surgeon, but he refused saying, 'i don't remove the wisdom teeth of anyone under the age of 18.' why did my primary dentist refer me there? i do not know. what i do know is that surgeon was old as dirt and senile... he retired a few months later.

Monday, May 02, 2005

hey mercedes, why the long face?

*pardon my use of a curse word, i'm in a bad mood this morning.

oh, how i need some music right now. i'd listen to something emo or angsty. like some get up kids or my chemical romance. i'm not even sure if either of them are considered emo anymore. i'm a bit out of touch with the whole genre labeling thing. pesach ended with a bang. if i had the chance to smack someone (actually a couple someones) i would have, but they scurried out like little bitches before i could. i don't like hurtful, disrespectful people who spin the truth and make mothers cry. it sickens me.
i wonder if i can get a heter to listen to some music. the omer/sfira is just too long. while my family and i were becoming religious we called it the omer, but all my frum-from-birth friends call it sfira, so i don't know what it's supposed to be called.